We'll watch the rice grow.
And talk about what is.
posted by jm at 4:03 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
About Me
- Name: jm
I am a brilliant creation of the universe formed from the cosmic protoplasm sailing into eternity. I have two hands, two feet, a couple of great ears, and I'm clipping through life at a moderate pace; minding my p*s and q*s, crossing my t*s, dotting every i.
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oooohhhh i think i want to be right there right now it there rain pattering on the roof? Heaven!
Rio Helmi photographer, looks to be one very fine photographer, thanks for sharing this...when i have a faster connect speed i'll look at more of his work.
i've hesitated to ask at raging uni but it has been on my mind some the past few weeks.. how is your sister JM, i have been sending healing thoughts, and warm thoughts around you.
Please feel free to delete this is it seems inappropriate to you.
Tseka, you are absolutely amazing. I'm talking to my sister right now, I'll be back in a second.
Your psychic sensitivity is tops, tseka. She phoned exactly as I was tuning in here. The healing thoughts are always welcomed.
Thank you.
when i have a faster connect speed i'll look at more of his work.
Sometimes I think I'm better off with dialup! In fact, I know I am. A nice limitation on the intake, wouldn't you say?
Wait a minute...........
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How did you know it was Rio?
Didn't you guess? She's psychic! :D
Well of course joe!!
It's strange all of this. This new mental realm. The porch is so cool and relaxing, and stays there as a reminder in all the hubub. It's in the mind, yet the feeling is there and each time I visit, I get the same sensation. And don't even have to travel to Bali.
It's not like a picture alone, nor a movie. Something else.
Probably our continuing conversations add the dimension and give our fantasies breath.
Tseka, your solar body is really getting it from Pluto now. This station is intense. It's an amazing
experience, since only a fraction of us get the Sun conjunction.
I pay particular attention to these long stations when they fall on the exact degree. Every one during this series for me has landed on an exact degree, Uranus being opposed now at 28.
It will relax as Pluto recedes, then the last pass, and on to a new ego. Quite an experience.
I think I'm just recovering a little bit now from the conjunction to my Moon at 22.
Btw, in terms of my Moon, Venus, and now the Uranus in my third house of siblings, my sister's and also my brother's rather big problems are being handled differently as a result of the Pluto transits. It looks as though I'm able to withold some of the total immersion in her pain and keep some feeling preserved for myself and the collective, indicated by Uranus. So it's been interesting, difficult, of course, but a good study of the emotional body and its evolution. Pluto is supposed to effect this evolution, so we'll see.
I think I'm learning to circulate some of these feelings and not disseminate too quickly in overreaction and complete merging as my SN in Scorpio 7th has always done. The test of the learning is here now, before Pluto gets to my Mars and directs me irresistibly to myself.
When Pluto transited conjunct my Mars I met my partner. This is the first square and most likely, the partnering with myself.
All fascinating to the highest degree. I think the self-awareness that comes with age changes the tone of one's life.
Fascinating JM, as always.
I am exhausted now, with few words.
My son has 29+ Pisces, 20 degree sag asc. he and i have been really dealing with a lot the last few days, um, years - the Big Pluto experiment. Your story feels some similar. Thanks for sharing. I'll be glad when we are to the other side.
Psychic? ja sometimes but not in the case of Rio Hondo. The photo information showed up as i was loading very sloooowly on my dail-up on this particular photo, i googled the name and went to see his work. I like it.
I'm not sure i want a new ego.....does feel like this one is getting turned inside out tho. My son is feeling similar. Wish it felt more exciting instead of draining.
Tseka, I think this is the worst part. I know how bad it is. The Moon transit was horrendous until it was well past the degree. But now I'm beginning to feel like a new woman.
The Sun rules the men in our lives so this is the plumbing job of a lifetime.
this is probably one of the hardest moments in your life, even though the other horrible experiences might have seemed that way. But the loss of an ego is something I wouldn't wish on......?
Until, of course, the new one emerges.
"draining" is the word for Pluto.
There is great great relief when it's done. After the station, I think you'll feel more energized.
I have some other ideas and I'll post them shortly.
I realized how you got Rio!
The sister thing is terrible, new problems, and I knew you picked up on it, but I have to let her go. All a result of my Pluto transit. Probably couldn't have done it before.
I remember Pluto over moon very well; when my friend died of leukemia. I was young. This changed me forever. I felt like i was as old as the universe and what 11-13? Uranus and Pluto together at the end.
Thank you for reminding me of that time.
During the past few years when times have felt difficult i have had a lot of help, my friends the Ravens and Bobcats come often. Our kindred- children of Ullr.
Releasing. This seems the right word. When i was a young woman i studied dance with Joan Skinner, she was a soloist with Martha Graham. Joan was stricken with severe arthritis and wheel chair bound when i studied her technique which she named "releasing". Releasing is a way of extending beyond the normal range. When you reach out your arm you actually contract your muscles to do so, they bunch up and shorten, by using visualization one can stretch the muscle and expand into the movement. It is not relaxing but something that givee control to "outside of self". The exercise takes a lot of practice, imaging strings attached to ends of fingers etc that pull the arms. Eventually the body begins to move differently with great power.
I am very sorry that is is so difficult for your sister. Very. I send wishes to float in with your songs.
This is wonderful to hear you speak this way again. I've missed it.
There's a loss of innocence maybe with a Pluto transit.
I'm very interested in this releasing exercise. I wonder how it can be done mentally.
Eventually the body begins to move differently with great power.
I could use this for my music. I played in public last night, and life is looking different today. I want so much to do something deep and good with my performance. There are a lot of angles. this stretch thing is very interesting. I have a muscle, tendon problem in my inner thigh that is healing so slowly it seems like not at all. Now is when I want to work with the proper stretch.
What do you think it is that you are releasing?
I'm still working with the last remanants of the Moon/Venus and unhealthy dependency. It seems that now it's a conscious thing, taking over from the painful usubconscious part of the Pluto transit. maybe that's what Pluot does. Bring it to the surface and then our wills can take over..probably for the rest of our lives..:-)
Thanks for the floating wishes. Like a Zen garden for my songs. Beautiful.
Btw, she has 3 planets in Scorpio, NN included. She can handle just about anything. So I can trust her. I know that now.
During the past few years when times have felt difficult i have had a lot of help, my friends the Ravens and Bobcats come often. Our kindred- children of Ullr.
I think this is what the NN in the 1st is all about. The wild creatures as our allies. There is a memory with this node of being there. Animals treat me as if I'm one of them.
I do not particularly think i am releasing any "thing" rather reminding myself that i can move with greater power if i do not force or reach but "release" / expand into the movement.
Like all things it begins with concentration on the breath. Focus. Watching, listening, attuning.
A great example is from cats, they appear lazily relaxed until something whips past and the paw zings out to seize. The rest of the body is still in repose. It is a contained power that is at the ready even when in apparent deep rest.
We are one with them.
So there is fundamental division between ourselves and others that is beyond the personal. Almost a species thing. This is interesting.
Not that we don't go through all the motions of normal relating, but this basic separation, I think, is always active. Maybe knowing this completely relaxes the conflict.
The realization just came with my sister after the Moon transit, that my nurturing won't be needed personally the way it was. A more collective application is ahead. So that in turn frees me from my need somewhat. All good for the NN. I feel it so deep. This singular thing.
From my Sami joiker:
I fly away
see
come back and tell
the people
and their lives make
the visions true
but they asked for it themselves
Perfect explanation. The cat's claws. Important. I did the damage by forcing the stretch. I am now going to heal it with this in mind. Thank you for this.
The separation of action you described in the cat is very very good. That way only the exact amount of energy is used for the action. Exactly what I want. Keeping potential energy in reserve as much as possible.
Oh oh oh oooooh. I love this poet. OMG.
Oh that is so perfect.
Really, tseka. You just hit the spot. Coming back and telling the people. So Beautiful and related to the last few days.
Btw, your short analysis of that dream awhile back was exact.
I acted on it. Things have changed.
Js JM listening to you describe the NN in the first and the leaving of the 7th especially my loaded large 7th and that moon there....and reading Valkeaapa i see this line between the self and others in the shamanic sense. The caring for others becomes eventually a going away coming back but not a dependency or need. We have been reminded of what we knew all along.
This is so good. So very good. I'm revisiting my Pluto Moon and seeing what has happened.
and reading Valkeaapa i see this line between the self and others in the shamanic sense. The caring for others becomes eventually a going away coming back but not a dependency or need.
Exactly. My Mars in Libra needs this approach. The shamanic sense is an exqisite way of saying it. Our relationship "needs" are not that at all. They are "wants".
This week has been pivotal with Pluto just about to turn. It always comes back to the NN. Other things work out after that.
No matter how many planets we have in the 7th or Libra, I know we have to go out exactly this way. With the self intact.
I feel something entering.
May i write some more to you. These lines speak so to me. As if he writes my life.
---
I was expected to
I ought to
kill
time stopped
my heart pounded
reached my ears
blood rushed in my head
I saw the eyes of the young female reindeer, in her eyes
tears
or in my eyes
they began talking about Aja"d strange being
began talking about that poor wretch
in my eyes fog
in my mind night
---
i was alienated from people
they began
coming to me
------
who would have thought
weakness a way out
frailty a sea
other world appeared
new
other sounds in my own ears
who would have thought spring's silent child
speaking with the birds, reindeer
herding stones
delirious with the wind
who would have thought
would have died from starvation
without life in the reindeer
but so strange
one doesn't know
what it is
an then a person or two
with some cause
with some concern
and me
pitiful human being
poor wretch
not even life with the reindeer
I sat
silently
hearing
their worries
laments
undressed their minds
themselves
naked
to me pitiful human being
unworthy of respect
released their burden, the secrets.
I think instead of going into others and then having to reunite with the self, I want see if I can stay united with myself as I go. The feeling this arouses is so pleasurable it's amazing. They can all do exactly what they will. I stand.
So good JM and suits what i sense to be you.
Oh.
i was alienated from people
they began
coming to me
This is so good for me right now. I especially love deer. I used to live with their scent and soundless sound.
their worries
laments
undressed their minds
themselves
A feeling human. The essence.
I've been trying to make a decision. Lately I've been playing standing up. For a long time I was sitting, slumping really. Relaxed and comfortable though. I think this might be an important change.
The poet makes me straighten my spine. This is good.
last night a person stood next to me while I sang the song, Knot of Time. The one I recently posted. The energy was immense. He really listened. His face got serious and he stopped.
I will give. Like the Sami joiker. I sense he must. This is beyond just me.
I played in public last night, and life is looking different today. I want so much to do something deep and good with my performance.
This is so good! I know you will only give something deep and wonderful and whole, complete...my helig friend.
Indeed!!!
The knot such a great poem song. A joik in truth.
Zamma, with two missing teeth, wheezing with exertion has caught a mouse who somehow got in the house, i think they have made a way in next to the chimney. She is so pleased. 21!!
What an example, eh?
With this kind of encouragement, it could be no other way.
My art wants this for its next creative dimension.
Society creates its artists continuosly. With its minuses, this is a big plus. Being an artist and the other time and space that comes with the job. The fashionable ones are just that. They can be there. The bad ones too. Doesn't matter at all.
A joik in truth.
What a funny phrase!!! Made me laugh! Endearing with its truth. A joik. What a word.
I forgot. What does it mean exactly?
OMG!!!! LOL!!!
Zamma, with two missing teeth, wheezing with exertion has caught a mouse who somehow got in the house
Good omen. Alive with just enough teeth for he time and task!
You don't know how funny and significant Zamma and her mouse are! Just perfect.
21. An example of the highest order. Also significant.
A joik is a poem-song. it is a force of nature.
Do you by chance remember the Winter Olympics held in Norway a few years ago? Valkeapaa sang the opening. A joik is the voice on the wind, the voice in the treetops, rumbling in the ice breaking in the river, it is the voice of time finding space in this moment a natural sound. Perhaps it is what you do this natural unstrained powerful sound you create that is too visceral and true for most? It is of this. Similar in sound to the chanting of Tibetans, Buddhits chants, or Native Americans, a reverence. The great stories. Like the knot.
So he's a singer songwriter. Are these poems you post songs?
it is the voice of time finding space in this moment a natural sound. Perhaps it is what you do this natural unstrained powerful sound you create that is too visceral and true for most
I was told this by one in the know.
The absence of strain. Hard for them to understand. Too true. Hard for them to understand.
It's all right. I'll be true.
So he's a singer songwriter. Are these poems you post songs?
Valkeapaa was a great Sami shaman, a poet, a writer, a singer (joiker) a musician an artist. The healer with a white thread in his right ear..
A kidred.
What i post comes from a book he wrote of his life in poem form with drawings of the reindeer life. The words are written to suggest a herd of reindeer moving across the tundra. I cannot format them in blogger as they appear, they are beautiful. Reindeer tracks. Traces of the wind. In the translation to languages other than Sami he forbid the use of the pictures. They look like petraglyphs. Images of sun and the four directions, human on skis and sleds and reindeer. Very evocative images.
There are CDs of his work around. I believe he appears in some film work as well.
In a joik the voice is meant to mimic the natural sound source of what ever is the essence of the poem. Great nuance. Similar to the tsekas (sacred stories) of NW coast.
i am noticing that it is after eleven and i must rise very early for another difficult day. Time passes so pleasantly with you 'til later.
g'night
Thank you, dear friend, for the wonderful conversation and the joiks and tsekas.
i must rise very early for another difficult day.
Yes.
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