The Best Things
These baskets contain everything.
Take as much as you like.
Take as much as you like.
posted by jm at 10:16 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
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Whilst on a working trip in France, I fell in love with all the baskets. I came home wtih 4 large ones. Now I had 6! They get good use, starting to fray now. I sense the vegetables I buy at the market feel really respected to be carried in them. One of my little joys
I'm a basket lover too!!
They hold all my Taurus junk. Treasures, I mean.
Such a lovely idea. Baskets that are never empty.
Today i would love to slip a few beautiful orange apricots into them. Small and sweet, i've lots to share. The picking of them, talking to Mr Blue Jay and listening to Bee music in the Palo Verde was so pleasant this morning.
I'll take those little apricots. I love'em right off the tree.
Tonight was a magnificent, yet gentle evening. perfect temp, gorgeous sunset, and peace in the air.
hey everyone,
hey jm, so I was calling you down from the "Burning Stone" but I guess you didn´t hear me, I left something there for you (on your post from 21 April here at the cafe).
When you read it,would you mind throwing that info (date) into the burning stone? thank you
Ah! you found me jm - (well, acutally the other way round...)
so there has to be a solution to this "hard, hard, hard"
I get a sense what it is about, the karma behind. In an other life I lost myself totally by giving power to all the despair, pain and destruction in the outer world. I contracted so much that I couldn´t access my gifts anymore. From there comes the obsession of healing everything in this life. A lack of trusting in and seeing the higher order of things.
Take your time
There is especially a solution to the "hard hard hard". That's why it's there. I pay a lot of attention to the Saturn placement. It's what we are here to work on. A wise old Pisces astrologer said that to me and I recognized the truth; Work on your Saturn
I get a sense what it is about, the karma behind. In an other life I lost myself totally by giving power to all the despair, pain and destruction in the outer world. I contracted so much that I couldn´t access my gifts anymore.
Exactly the SN in Scorpio. Taurus is our talents. Saturn in the third is the gift of communication when the wall finally comes down after much concentrated work without the pain and destruction as a distraction.
It's an old habit, the addiction to outside circumstance and pain, but it can be left behind.
Sometimes I think there is a feeling of emptiness/loss and fear of boredom when the pain stops. Pain is so strong a sensation. It takes all the attention.
Maybe this pssage needs to be faced before fulfillment comes. The transition when nothing much happens. I think this is where relaxation can be obtained.
We have spoken here of the need for silence, pauses, as part of wholeness, an enhancement of experience.
I have been thinking much about this need, about noise and music, about entrainment and derangement the past few days.
Nightly and in the morning and at odd moments i leaf through the Materia Medica looking for patterns of similarity.
Over the past few days my brother lost most of the use of his right arm becoming essentially a quadriplegic. A month ago his legs began to fail. Both episodes were accompanied by "msuic in my head" non-stop soft rock, a woman's voice. Now this is very curious how my brother would know this since he is deaf.
What does this imply? The brain's control center becomes deranged and no longer communicates to the extremities and is heard as "static-y music".
I do not think we have overstated the need for silence, pauses, rests, as essential to healing, our pleasure or our daily well being.
Reading Analysa's story, reminds me of your experience with the astronomers last fall, jm.
Perhaps you can tell her the story of how Jupiter and Saturn work to protect Earth.
This information has forever changed how i think of Saturn. I now see the healing, protective gifts that i did not see before.
“Sometimes I think there is a feeling of emptiness/loss and fear of boredom when the pain stops”
That is exactly what I felt last year when I realized my wrong way of being, I didn´t know how to define myself anymore - I had defined myself through healing the pain of others. Suddenly it was so clear that I had to let go of it, that is when I closed my healing center and started breaking down all the structures I had built the previous years.
I designed a new life for myself, all based on NN Taurus. Of course the situation has been more complicated than I can tell here, at one point I thought “this is the shi....est worst time ever in my life”, then my intuition said “ NO, this is what you have been waiting for ALL YOUR LIFE, finally it has arrived. ” All the difficulties/enemies/nasty people became the teachers that pointed out to me where I had been stubbornly holding on. When I realized that, the situation started to turn around.
Thanks jm,
forgot you had a bank holiday today...
good night
Tseka, this is an amazing story and I've got the bumps. Will think and be back in a second.
I thought “this is the shi....est worst time ever in my life”, then my intuition said “ NO, this is what you have been waiting for ALL YOUR LIFE, finally it has arrived.
OMG. Exactly analysa. Exactly. This is where I stand now.
More on the Saturn in a minute.
Is this temporary with your brother?
It is so bump producing. I think it all goes back the NN in the 12th and the need for confinement and crippling in order to reach the spiritual realms.
I see this so often with the 12th, where others are afraid, often guilty and confused, but the 12th house resident is in another reality and experiences it entirely differently.
Neptune ruling all of this is sationing and returning to his mercury, body system communication. maybe new pathways are forming. Saturn of course has just left, speaking of the protective part of Saturn.
Pluto is opposite the Uranus ruling the nervous system. this is something.
The telepathic communication is the key to what's developing.
So maybe the extemities are too far from the point at the moment and the effort to make them work is useless.
The silences are intersting. Just moving an arm creates incredible noise though not normally audible. All the static, commotion, fumbles, excess movements that comprise most of what we do. What and why? How much can we delete?
Add to this the Saturn coming to Virgo, his return, and your 12th house phase. we have a Greek style drama in final dress rehearsal.
ja JM a greek style drama.
No this is not temporary. This is the final act of a long play.
The body is too worn from years of coping with the Cerebral Palsy.
Twice before we had crises and they were averted. He was much younger. Homeopathy still have much to offer it can dial down the noise and control the pain and spasms better than anything big pharma can offer.
It drains us all of our reserves, but we go forward with some humor most days.
The draining is the thing. The path will reveal itself and it must be as is. He seems to be ready to relinquish this control and trying to stop it is so draining. The adjustment comes quickly. Maybe that's part of your lesson with the North in the first. To keep vitality in the reserves.
The "us" is the thing too. the group effort that brings you together with a common purpose.
Your sibling karma is astounding. Mars ruling the 3rd between Neptune and Saturn in the 7th. Saturn headed there. I think you can count on many unusual events coming up.
This makes for such an all encompassing view of the body and life. Being witness to this when most of us complain bitterly with our normal bodies.
You've seen a lot.
telepathic-
We do share something as i was well aware this was coming last year before any outward indication.
The asc at the midpoint of the Nep/Saturn seems to say now is the time.
Last week's musical assult on my system seems to be an interesting shared experience.
The music is fascinating. I wonder what the message is and if there will be more of this. With your NN in Pisces and his in the 12th, there is mystical union I'm sure and maybe you are each other's teachers. This realm is only for the chosen few. Can you describe the music at all?
For some, the body really is "immaterial" It's simply a vehicle to mystical union and self immolation is often the way. 12th house. I experienced that with my partner.
I've seen this so often with Pisces-Virgo. I wonder if acceptance and the easiest quickest way to pain alleviation is best and onward to the other things that are trying come in.
I think spirits choose their vehicles and come to us when the time is exactly right. When the interference is gone.
It's not acceptable in the "normal" world to live in this realm so it's often covered up with drug addiction, alcoholism, disease, and insanity. The transcendant aim is the same.
I'm a little lost following this Jm:"Your sibling karma is astounding. Mars ruling the 3rd between Neptune and Saturn in the 7th. Saturn headed there. I think you can count on many unusual events coming up."
Third house is siblings ja??
My third house cusp is Taurus. One bro was Taurus Sun and the other is Taurus rising both are very close to same degree which is close to my cusp degree too hmmm. I thought the ruler would be Venus in Sco 8th??? Also makes sense - the deep connection and death of one and the connection to the struggle of the other. By Koch the whole stellium, Sat, Mars Nep in Libra ends up in the 8th. I can see the Libra being the "7th house" by virtue of it being Libra is this what you mean when you speak of the 7th? Or am i desperately lost?
I was using Placidus, which I don't usually do. I forgot to switch. I must correct that immediately.
Now it makes sense.
Ruler of the third in the 8th is very often death of a sibling. This situation is mysterious.
Yes, to everything you say.
I asked what i need to know for this situation. The image of myself with a radiant golden glow from heart and open hands. Not the usual white/ prismatic glow of healing.
Open hands, accepting.
The lesson of the birds my teachers are ever in my mind.
You gave me the long/lat for your specs and I can't get that into astrodienst for the koch chart so it will take some looking.
This is so wise. I don't think it's healing at all in the usual way. And death is the mystery man, although I don't think he's ready to come yet. The gold rather than white is interesting. And the music.
This is a higher level in your learning, I'm sure.
We get stuck thinking in patterns and that life and the body have to be healthy in traditional ways. This isn't so in the higher realms. It's exchanged for spiritual health.
Probably if you let go of the familiar path of healing the body and let this guide you, you will be amazed, and will see in retrospect.
I'll give you a run down on my 12th house experience in a mo.
With Pluto in his 8th comes the death question. will he die or will he regenerate in some way? Release is part of Pluto through the 8th but we never know what that will mean. This mystery is part of your knowledge now I think. To relate to this in a new way without death or sickness as the combatant. I'd love to learn all of this myself. It's so evolved. Eventually we see death as an ally, sickness as a part of progression. Maybe heal what we can, let decay occur when necessary. Very interesting and advanced. We are humble students.
M had the packed 12th house and a Pisces mother. The 12th is the closet of the whole family line and people with planets there often come in to reveal these hidden parts.
His mother's sister became psychotic when she had a hysterectomy. Uncle Lawrence was always mad and used to talk to the trees. M loved this and talked about Lawrence often. Even as a child, he understood why he talked to them.
They were a strict Southern Baptsist family and when M came in he was big trouble from the start. Yet they loved him most of all.
So the whole family weakness in dealing with reality came in with him and he spent his entire life fulfilling that destiny.
From the outside, it looks bad, from within, it can have moments of divine experience. This even happens when damaged babies come in and live briefly. They leave a huge legacy.
Patterns are so elusive. As soon as we create them and get them working they change or stop working. It can be mind boggling.
Some seem to be written in stone, such as the breakup of light into the spectrum, and to ascertain those that are permanent and those that are liaisons to another is very very tricky.
How much changes and how much stays the same? How much can we control the alignment? When and how should we adjust to IT? Physicians are attacted to medicine partly for this reason. To know their own power.
I guess we find that in the body. It keeps realigning and healing until it comes to a place where the pattern doesn't move or reverses. Cancer teaches a lot of this.
A lot is coming to me.
Another is the lesson of physical helplessness with Pisces. That's why it rules hospitals, jails, and prisons, where people are cared for. We come in helpless and often get that way at the end of life. But some get there prematurely or have a whole life of it. There are a million lessons to be learned by everyone involved in these scenarios. Again, judgement has to be suspended and reworked. Judgement and Pisces. A big one. Pisces is a cosmic realignment for those heavily under the influence. And the exchange is wisdom. Deep understanding.
I can't help but connect the Pisces transits now, especially the NN which you two share, his by house. O Taurus. Practical use of the spiritual knowledge. How far can you go?
Oh my deerhearted one so much resonates down to the very cell, no beyond that. Far beyond that....
(Everett WA btw)
You never cease to amaze and inspire me.
I love these stories about M.
My god what a rich life you two shared.
You too tseka on the inspiration. I am learning so much and growing as a person. You have a way of connecting me to things inside myself I didn't know were there.
One of the most important things now is to know completely your value and work so far in your life. His disease is plotting its own course and your inability to affect that the way you'd like right now is in no way a reflection of your skill. In fact, you don't know what is up ahead and what you will be able to do. The situation is teaching you.
I happen to think death itself might be progress and even disease might be, karmically. We have so much to learn. Progress is not linear.
I've seen that in my own sicknesses, some which I've purposely interfered with minimally because I knew they were leading me to self mastery. They're all different.
I think the NN in Taurus is the relaxation I keep talking about, and maybe the struggle to work those limbs is not what he wants.
It will all unfold.
Those stories. I don't. know sometimes. I do know he was a mystic, though, and left that legacy. He was not normal and well, so I understand the dramatic ups and downs of life with these people.
I also worked at the end with any kind of healing I could come up with, until of course I realized that he was perfectly fine with his destiny. He took charge of his death in a way I never experienced before in his life. Made all his arrangements with hospice. Laughed when the minister came and went in the last days, and made me laugh again when he referred to the "social" in social services.
Everything is really all right.
I think you are right about the music as an important part of this.
Lessons of the birds, one appeared dead, lifeless, but i could "feel" her still. I let myself go far beyond the usual "light" fell over the precipice into sound beyond light. The great roar of all pulses. We were following a slender thread until we found the pulse that connected to the bird's pulse. I felt it throb beneath my fingers. Eventually we returned to find ourselves surrounded by bunnies and birds, hundreds in the trees, all focused on us as if they were holding their breath and as the sun rose she exploded full flight into the light of morning amid a joyous cry from those around us.
Profound lesson.
Next day another bird was found, same spot, far before dawn on solstice. She seemed ok, eating but hopped into my hand, i slid into the "healing space" but found it closed. Birds and rabbits went on about their business paying no attention. The sun rose. The bird blinked her eyes watching me chirped a a joyous chirp and died.
May 11 last year i visioned my friend and and my brother both releasing from their bodies. The process began for both about the same time. For my friend there were no indicators that anything was amiss. Yet we knew, she and i that it was time to go and she let go.
It was my son who reminded me of the bird lessons that happened so many years ago.
I am paying attention. Humble does not begin to describe....
This is when the bobcats began visiting again.
What is it you always say about the animals are our helpers, teachers.
yes.
Of course. The tale of two birds. That's when you learned and now it's being put to use.
I think the transition to death is the joyous event we are seeking all our lives.
You experience this to some extent all your life with that 8th house. I think that house is the major point in the wheel. The biggest transition. I'm going to so some work on this. It's coming into focus.
Letting go totally is that 8th lesson which describes death as far as the body goes.
The two birds are perfect. My 8th house friend and I came across a beautiful dead bird in a parking lot one night. Neither of us were unhappy. Just hypnotized by its beauty and serenity. Only a SN Scorp and 8th Houser could get it!
That's another thing M went on and on about. One moment in the forest when he talked to the animals. Never left him and something he could share with almost no one.
So either way is equal. If your brother dies, it's a glorious release, but if he continues in his body, it's triumph of the human spirit in the material realm. He holds the key.
Yep
My brother's death i experienced as (his) ecstatic joy. Great gift.
This is why is speak so much of tantra. The big release into whole being. We can know it and breathe.
The real 8th house lesson perhaps.
agree, this is his choice. And i think you have it very right when you said that somehow the physical difficulty was of little importance to him.
We may find just the right path. This i am working on too. Perhaps the thread that i hold in this story is the one that can take him to a community of others like him. I have found a good possibility in Oregon.
Either way is equal, Yes.
In both (birds) there was joy in the release.
Yes. The real 8th house. We leave the small world and the interpersonal in the 8th to go out into the universe. It's traumatic, but once we get to the other side, we see what we were missing.
So the passage into death is excruciating for the witness, but this is where the 8th house people come in. They facilitate the passage, probably more for the survivors.
I am always enthralled with tantric teachings and those that use the energy of this passage for creation.
Birth and death, What would we do without them?????
Perhaps the thread that i hold in this story is the one that can take him to a community of others like him. I have found a good possibility in Oregon.
YES! YES! YES! My love! My Honey Bun! A 1000 yesses!
I've always thought this. He is ready and also wanting to let you be free. Others can help with the help. Oh I'm so happy!
This is part of the big key as you learn to relinquish some of the 8th house control, and lean toward your 1st House North. This is also healing. Letting him find his destiny with encouragement. You'll still be heavily involved, but I'm sure he's not interested in lugging those limbs and trying so hard. Yet, I think there is quite a bit of life left in him.
Taurus wants to take it easy. How wonderful if he could have all the details done without anguish. Professionals. He's a Cap. he knows about this.
Not only that. He's got a packed 10th house with a Cap stellium. That's out in the world.
Mercury in the 10th is the transit now. Communication with the world at large. Saturn ruling the 10th and all the Cap has just opposed, and is leaving the 4th house. leaving home after the Saturn sorrow with the family. Saturn return in the 5th. Self expression and fun, believe it or not.
Pluto in the 4th is a lot of karmic pull with the family and that will continue, but still, he has a public chart. This could really be a possibility.
I'm so excited. I love problem solving.
Actually i could see this clearly, and any lapses were helped by my son.
It is my mother and brother who have had things to work on and get to a certain point. I have just been the watcher mostly. I provide support for them. Waiting for them to accept the release.
Ironically it was little Ulli-Maki cat who arrived simultaneously who has been guiding me through all this. He was bit by the sidewinder.
U-M's bite was somewhat superficial. Cats have a remarkable way of isolating toxins, forming tumors... The poison filled a nasty abscess between skin and muscle in his throat.
He was a feral cat but a wise boy. I offered him a safe place, the garage with an open window, food and water. I saw him roaming, coming and going, he would visit on my patio, dance away if i came too close. slowly the dance became a waltz small touches, conversation, building trust.
Waiting for the abscess to burst. Not forcing anything which would drive the toxins deep. And the day came and we were ready to do what was necessary.
Zamma invited him into the house last week and i have a new battle about who owns the bed....ahem.
Yes, as problem solver you are astonishingly good. Everything you have said has offered me clarity, focusing the lens.
OMG. A portend. A new family.
I love the name Ulli-Maki. Very musical.
Waiting for the abscess to burst. Not forcing anything which would drive the toxins deep. And the day came and we were ready to do what was necessary.
Yes.
Things are looking up.
Yes he has a public chart and dreams that he would go live in Washington DC. His dreams were folding all around him. These have been the sorrows and losses.
I have been trying to convince him that there are other ways than the original that take him to the same destination. A lot of this comes from our conversations here about our own public careers and the upcoming changes. Flexibility is not his strong point. The abscess i was waiting for to burst was the Neptunian dream/illusion of continuing on a path that was not possible any longer.
We got there Saturday.
Onward (as a wise one says)
And to think that you can see all of this from a few glyphs scattered on a circle.
gasp!
Problem solving helps me tremendously. I love the logical path in all this confusion. And my dictum is that every problem comes with a solution. Yin-yang. Pattern-antipattern.
And to think that you can see all of this from a few glyphs scattered on a circle.
gasp!
It always makes me gasp.
The abscess i was waiting for to burst was the Neptunian dream/illusion of continuing on a path that was not possible any longer
Oh what a glorious relief.
It feels like things really are working themselves out. I have some tales to tell when we have time..:o) Realizing the illusion is a very good feeling. Freedom.
Realizing the illusion is a very good feeling. Freedom
And yet truth often is held in the illusion. Sometimes we only need time to let the petals fall and the fragrance fade to reveal the seeds of the future.
Sometimes we only need time
Yes.
You're right about truth in the illusion. Truth is in everything, fortunately.
Beautiful thoughts on this warm evening.
You know, I don't really worry too much about these pesky illusions. Let the petals do what they do.
Well.
The situation with Jupiter and Saturn is something I learned at my local observatory last summer.
These two planets work together to protect the Earth by attracting into their orbits harmful matter that's headed our way. I think this might partly explain why Jupiter has 61+ moons.
We could probably use the upcoming Saturn years to join Jupiter and Saturn in this protective feat.
Ah, the engaging dance of a cat. :-) :-) :-)
A purr to all. @;-)
"These two planets work together to protect the Earth by attracting into their orbits harmful matter that's headed our way."
That is so comforting to know!
I´ll come back later, want to tell you guys a story. Wanted to pop buy RU as well, might do that first.
All this writing (& opening up), it´s a bit intense for me....
Analysa, I love stories. Looking forward to it.
Slow and easy is our motto. NN in Taurus. So take your time along with the breaths. No hurry at all, unless something is chasing you, of course! Glad to see you at RU as well.
Took your advice on slow & easy. I´ll have my little story soon.
I was reading the energies of Raging Universe and Jazzrap cafe these last two days.
I found it quite interesting, RU is like a very modern, eclectic, somewhat urban space, very laid back, large contemporary couches, all very white, simple and very large space, has a very high vibration, I don´t feel any rigid academic energy (thank God!).
When I looked at jazzrap cafe, I saw the total opposite, all black, no shape or form. I thougt I was blocked and couldn´t see anything, then I realized, ah! this makes perfect sense, this is the Void, the Darkness where raw creative energy exists, the source of the energy for artists. No wonder I´m here too, with all that needs to be unblocked.
Interesting energies .... Do you also work with the tarot? I wondered ....Where you born in the year of the monkey?
You are a fantastic conversationalist analysa. I love this kind of talk. Your descriptions of the two sites are wonderful. I never tire of these perceptions. Looking forward to more. Your English is unbelievable.
I get that exactly. The urban upbeat exposed vibe of RU. This is where my future is.
The whiteness and space are a large part of it. I'm even intimidated sometimes by RU and it's ambition and public urge.
I almost became a filmmaker and I was especially interested in black & white. My first impulse when creating the blogs was to do black, but it changed as it unfolded, and RU came first. Interesting about the blockage and jazzrap. It also represents a hiding place. Privacy. I like your idea about the creative from the void.
Then I was going to close jazzrap, feeling divided, but that didn't happen. It seemed to fade, but came back to life.
It's so fascinating. Two different worlds. Opposite polarities. I wonder how this will translate in the end to my work as an artist.
I do Tarot for myself. How 'bout you? My signature card is the King of Wands. Lots of stories on that one. What is your impression of this card?
I was born in the year of the rat! What are you?
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