Friday, February 20, 2009
About Me
- Name: jm
I am a brilliant creation of the universe formed from the cosmic protoplasm sailing into eternity. I have two hands, two feet, a couple of great ears, and I'm clipping through life at a moderate pace; minding my p*s and q*s, crossing my t*s, dotting every i.
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You must keep your Ash happy.
Mine is dormant not even a swelling. She knows, it's still time to remain in her stately silence. Spring is late this year.
The wind in the Ash.
She has translated so many poems on a warm evening. They drift around the world like Tibetan prayers, get caught in the Ash branches, fall to earth.
Gotta save my ash!
I love the image of translation. I will keep that in mind when communicating with her this spring. Send me one from yours and I will catch the drift.
I just pruned her and am burning some of her branches. I am allergic to her pollen it is so profuse it turns the yard bright yellow. Old indian trick burn the branch tips now until the first leaves and let the smoke act upon the system. Antigens.
A is disgusted, he thinks it's possible violence will erupt later this year- not everywhere but some places. It is intended. Easier to divide the populace. I won't be civil war again. Even though there is a lot of race baiting going on. The people seem to get that they need to rely on each other to survive this.
That's interesting. I think maybe violence too. Police battles with youth are almost certain. Hmmmm...
Division is OK. We need the friction for energy and conflict is the only way. We'll manage the violence.
Soon enough the division will become Us against hunger and basic survival. It could become ugly if the upper class is seen drinking champagne and laughing at our distress.
Honestly i have been comparing this time to the 1830s and a little earlier and latter. A mini ice age hit the north and the dust years took out Northern tribes in Eastern US. Lots of famine. It is when the big wave of Scandinavians and Irish and Scots and the freemen from England came to America. The white armada, food only enough for 60% and that is roughly how may survived.
One solution that the wealthy always look at is how to control the numbers when they get inconveniently high. That was the real reason of course that the Lairds dumped freemen from their lands- too many for the resources.
You are right. Survival.
The point is not to worry about the wealthy. About THEM. That's how we get into these positions in the first place. We have to take power and stop waiting, cowering, and fearing them. They'll repsond accordingly if we take the initiative instead of the reactive stance. I'm tired of this. Always what they are planning to do. They are not monolithic. They're just humans, and weak ones fundamentally. Knowing how to survive is recognizing strength and weakness.
The civil unrest is needed for ourselves. We must have friction.
If we don't control our numbers, life will.
We always forget and repeat.
Well some is worth repeating. But anyway, worryng about them is useless. Maybe worrying about "it" is worthwhile.
I think disgust covers it.
I just keep working, creating my own peaceful life as best i can.
Disgust is my word for it. But that's that and they are them. There are so many worlds within worlds. I find myself attempting to learn to get nourishment from what repels me if I can. I used to run from it all, but maybe I can endure it better than I thought. It's always been like this and will continue to be so. Change is a fantasy. It goes on subtly. The world is full of common denominators. The special are marginalized and learn to cope, and ultimately thrive in their obscurity, if that's where it lands.
You seem to be doing fine.
Depends on how you define fine.
This does not keep me awake at nights. It will be whatever it is. I've lost so much that was dear to my heart that "stuff" does not quite cut it.
Also growing up poor and among real poverty and feeling wealthy because of the abundance in nature sets up a different value system.
I have only about 2-3 months left of my savings. Not much cushion, while i scramble to find enough money for my basic needs, and they are not too much. So maybe i lose this house. It took a long time to afford one. Maybe i can't and still choose my lifestyle. I've lived out of a rucksack and out of my truck. I'm a gypsy at heart you know.
Lots of us are thinking just this way. What's really worth it? Housing especially. Possessions are a ball and chain.
I look at the Saturn-Uranus opp for clues. Saturn is the weight, Uranus the liberty. Maybe relationships are weighing you down now instead of material things. Saturn in Libra is that way.
I've been acquiring absolutely nothing.
Heh...relationships, i'm death on them at the moment. If you don't fit in my current life I hand back the ball with the chain you parked on my door step while you were sweet talking me and am not polite about it. Serious JM. I've been exercising my NN. I have my family that i care about but even my brother has been getting less and less. My mother and son are soooo proud!
Not selling my art has been a loss on a level i did not expect. I love to bring the work to others. On the other hand my creativity is finding outlets that are smaller - the talimans, knitting bread making. I am being very domestic. ironically for the first time in my life i am "wife" material. I am so domestic! I would retire if i had the money. Not engage at all any more.
I would retire too. So maybe you can find a partner and stay home.
Heh, he'd have to be a saint. I am so happy being alone. Ulli that cat Zamma allowed in is a lover boy and so happy. The most cheerful person i've ever met. Maybe he's helping me recognize what i need?
Alone's great.
Any ideas about what to do for money?
Money. The big question. So far all attempts have yielded very meager returns. I have almost zero hope of a regular job in this area.
The workshop which i mentioned would be for serious study. I would like to charge 200.00 for a weekend with 4 hours each day. A very basic foundation. Then offer a menu of one day seminars with a topic of focus, first aid, women's health, cold, flu, and so on. Probably charge 75.00 for that.
$800.00 covers my basic expenses food shelter utilities etc per month. 1200.00 covers everything no frills taxes and insurance. 1500 incl health insurance plus an impulse here and there.
I've thought about this for years. Now might be the time. I've had some interest from all over the country. People contact me because i've mentioned here and there that i am a homeopath.
A woman back east (CIA) no less has contacted me through a friend that i've helped. She is typical of requests i'm now getting: over 50 and wants to move away from regular MD and chem meds but does not know how to go about it. If she can put together a handful off people i can fly to them lay out a roadmap and with internet we are set. For people who are working 200.00 is nothing.
A lot of my undergraduate work became part of the texts of the medical program when they upgraded the program. Amazingly i'm much better at technical writing. So, i'm pretty good to go. I also have gold plated credentials rare in the US. It could be a good way to spread homeopathy around, far better than me treating people who can't pay. Give them the tools to do the simple stuff themselves and stay as healthy as possible. They can set up study groups and help each other.
The hope would be that i can bunch up the seminars so i have lots of time to continue with my artist's life.
It's crazy because someone could walk into a gallery and buy two tomorrow and my world would change. I'm not counting on that the trends are not favorable. Even if people have money they are pulled in right now. Not open to art.
One of the best times for selling was 9/11 people gravitated to my work and i sold a bunch of paintings in the weeks following. A different kind of trauma. Art was therapy. Now it is too much of a luxury.
People are going to need this desperately. They can't afford health care and if the gov't starts cutting benefits, there is going to be some real sorrow. I think it's time.
Let them get used to the times. They might buy more art in awhile. They'll always need it.
I am perpetually enraged with the health care system and anything the gov't does now is still going to be for the system. The alternative routes must be traveled. The boomers are aging and there is trouble ahead.
Well, pluto is cozying up to my Chiron soon. Who knows.
How about you will you be OK where you are?
I've been outraged about American health care most of my life.
Becoming an educator i could reach more people and bypass this electronic surveillance bullshit which is just meant to further the use of drugs and denial of health.
my sweetheart, my eyes are complaining so i'm going to shut this box down. I will be looking for that photo first thing.
G'night.
G'night, my love. I'm going to absorb the snowstorm outside my cozy home.
Tomorrow ....
I got them! You wonderful beautiful woman!
I'll be back later. A called before i got out of bed and there stuff to do this morning.
BBL
My friend just returned from a rich area near San Diego visiting husband's relatives. The fellow was former Merril lynch biggie. He lost 2 million, woe is me, and 3 years salary in the recent melt down.
Meanwhile they are giving generously to rehab some local historical adobes and hang with their exclusive set of pals, complain about how hard it is to travel to Africa or other places because they have to rub elbows with the rifraf. According to my friend they are absolutely clueless about the pain and suffering outside their little circle.
They talk about how they worked so hard. I wish i could introduce them to my father who logged his whole life in rain, snow, you name it. Or that they had your papa's good sense to wise them up.
It makes me think about how many people live in America but are not Americans. If you get what i mean.
I don't relate to these people. It's as if they live in walled worlds, so I don't think about them much, and when I do, I feel sorry for them, trapped as they are. I value freedom so I feel wealthy. I feel sorry for everyone. The human conditions is a great equalizer and we all suffer. They seem miserable with their material fortunes. Just as miserable as those without. Same sicknesses, same woes.
Astrology is amazing. The people seem to be really absorbing the reality on this first Pluto-Venus hit.
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