Evgeny Mokhorev 
Downside up.
posted by jm at 3:39 AM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
About Me
- Name: jm
I am a brilliant creation of the universe formed from the cosmic protoplasm sailing into eternity. I have two hands, two feet, a couple of great ears, and I'm clipping through life at a moderate pace; minding my p*s and q*s, crossing my t*s, dotting every i.
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42 Comments:
Astonishing.
Upside down or rightside up this image is exquisite.
The curve the light oh.
Omg. Am I glad. Such a pleasure. I feel like I'm back to square one with my unique vision. So I finally posted something closer to the source, and sure enough, here you are.
The story of my life. How far out or in can I go and still connect? Other artists have done it and I've connected with them. So we'll see.
I thought I was back to solo completely, but little surprises reveal themselves these days. It's a challenge for me to stay on track.
It is good to have these bursts of energy to be found at odd moments.
How far can you go, i do not think there is a limit.
Little surprises indeed. It has been like that lately.
We all need them.
It would seem that there is some challenge afoot for many at the moment.
I am feeling like the eye of a storm, the almost too calm. Zamma as well.
She is heading up on her double two. Meanwhile the newboy who is just attaining his first two is keeping us chortling. New blood, highly recommended, it brings out our playful nature.
The eye of the storm?
It would seem that there is some challenge afoot for many at the moment.
I'm sure we're experiencing the planetary frontier crossings. Border towns are always tense.
But so what. The trick is to find that ongoing relaxed connection within most of it. The outer flux is necessary to an extent, but not that important. It's all just something to do.
mmm the relaxed connection...
this pretty well sums it up for me.
I spent so long searching, searching, all the connections. Everything connected. Overwhelming connection. And then it just is. Like all processes you roll over a hump somewhere and it just gets easier or (?) like any kind of mastery. Then we relax into it.
What era is this picture from i wonder?
Like all processes you roll over a hump somewhere and it just gets easier or (?) like any kind of mastery. Then we relax into it.
You are so right.
This artist is contemporary, born 1967. I think this photo was done around the turn of the century. I'm so pleased about your interest.
These people have been growing, working, and developing all the time in all kinds of societies and political situations. It's amazing how the arts thrive.
Downside up
I am taking a part of your "Pisces" and placing it here.
Now he is confronted with the realization that experience extends beyond what his finite senses can perceive and measure. He becomes involved in situations which require him to relinquish his hold on the physical plane. He's out of order.
A little sharing for your NN investigations.
Last night i was enchanted by the moon. Mesmerized in a way i could not resist. I photographed her rising over the mountains into blues and amethyst.
Later glowing in the indigo, she appeared to be dripping pearls of light onto the earth.
I fell asleep early. Was drawn awake over and over, pulled to the window to watch. I opened the window onto the soft hot night and let timelessness settle around me. Consciousness stretching, i listened to the bamboo and Ash. The full eclipse was red-orange.
The wind whispers turned to voice. My son who was watching far away was one. My beloved...spoke also from the deep silence, self imposed years ago.
I realized i had been expecting him. We share a very, very long tether...a simple white thread. He arrives and departs with the eclipses.
And so i sat and listened, feeling grounded and well, as words, poetry tumbled from the limbs of the Ash.
They arrived in my e-mail this morning all written during the eclipse.
As i type the moon is rising a golden seal above the ridge.
The door swings open again. I know Uranus is afoot.
Full moon eclipse on my North Node, it was when Uranus went over the NN that my beloved moved himself into silence, disappeared.
As i watched the eclipse i felt a renewal, a bit like being re-born into a new level of consciousness. My son called early to say he experienced these as well.
i do not know.
"Some things are" i guess.
My son's thought -you will laugh- how wise my parent's generation was (the Pluto Cancer) in the cartoons they presented a person with supernatural powers and his motto was...."i am what i am and that's all that i am"
Or....
That's our Piscean take on it.
We are "out of order", it feels just fine.
Also, i wonder about your telepathically connected Aquarian wandering northern California.
We shall see.
Uranus | Neptune mutual reception are not done with us yet.
How wise you are. Connected to the right things. I have not been. I have work to do.
Those that move from us and disappear are the ones who love us the most. Those of us with the NN in the 1st. My telepathic soul friend has moved the furthest, yet remains the closest. I have never doubted his love. It speaks in the freedom he's always offered me. Believing is not-seeing in this case.
I meditated on Uranus (opposite my Pluto now) and my NN. I felt the longing for myself. Two videos popped off the shelf into my hands. Siddhartha and a series called Faith, a journey through African American religion and music.
Today I wondered whether or not to stop speaking for awhile, but after your comments, I have my answer.
It was overwhelming, this eclipse.
You are right. The Uranus-Neptune mutual reception. You are right in so many ways, dear friend.
I send kisses for your heart jm
my beloved says, i leave so you can be free.
My obsession would hold you captive.
But I am not a martyr.
Painful this has been for us
since we found each other at 19.
There is an odd knowing that is wisdom we have not yet attained.
Old stuff? or energies that twine in just the right way to open the gate just a little more?
Siddhartha- this is what we were reading when we met...
I shall be interested in your response to this film now.
Oh I need them. The sorrow came. It was due.
I don't know where to begin. The truth came to me last night. It stayed for 5 seconds, but I knew I was all right.
Then the usual questions. What am I doing here? I can't retreat. How can I move around the human agony? I know one thing so so clearly. If I can relax, I will thrive. What to do with them? If I can relax.
How can I build on the 5 seconds?
OMG. you can't imagine how the words about your beloved are affecting me. I know this so well.
OMG! Siddhartha! You and him. You are so right about the mutual reception.
It was an amazing night. Let me get my bearings. Siddhartha came to deliver the message. Enlightenment by the river. Then the 1st episode of Faith
There is a River
More in a second.
sorrow, the old demand
grief
And the wind blows and tomorrow will have another song.
And you will sing them for us.
And we will hear
Some of us will hear the spaces between
And gasp at your genius.
five seconds is all that is needed for the spark.
My obsession would hold you captive.
They are prisons. Some do well in captivity, some do not. The I Ching says in The Wanderer that prisons are all right as temporary rest stops but they should not become permanent dwellings.
It was something, the way Siddartha appeared. The movie was not acted particularly well, but for some strange reason, I was not bothered. The story is as beautiful as it gets. The music was beyond desription. Just what we've been talking about. All singing by the same man in the same basic tone. Very very simple. It added tremendous power to the singularity of Siddhatha's quest. He was portrayed quite well as a solo seeker with no doubt about his solo path. Yet in the end, by the river, he reunited with his friend Govinda.
The message repeated was, All things return
The relationship with the woman was well done too. The spiritual connection that determined the impossibility of traditional love and togetherness. The most moving part was the separation from his son. All the needed parts of the lone spiritual path. But in the end, after he found peace, he was able to bring others back in to his circle.
It was wonderful. I am reminded of my journey again, and I think I just answered my question. How do I continue my solo quest and still have relationship?
One thing I loved was how Siddhartha was portrayed as a unique and wise master from the very start, even before his trials and tribulations.
I also loved how the ferryman took him under his wing then left him the boat and his future.
I read it long ago, but I didn't get it. I did last night. Something has changed in me. I will know what to do. I so identify with the complete sacrifice it takes to find this experience. Layer upon layer. But it waits and gives its all when we're ready.
What's so strange is that I didn't feel like talking about Siddhartha and last night at all. Couldn't. Until you mentioned this incredible connection. This adds another curve, but I think I understand.
Oh
the words went strait to my heart.
thank you i needed this also
The book felt more important than what i could understand then.
Our familiarity with the I Ching casts it all in to a different light now.
Perhaps i will re-read, find this film.
Somehow i feel that if one person can find a "truth" and put it into words then we are each of us capable of doing so.
And we will hear
Some of us will hear the spaces between
And gasp at your genius.
Heavens, what a concept.
This is what's happening. The power supply of my downstairs keyboard blew up 2 weeks ago in a shower of sparks. I gave it a rest, then last night got another one with an added component. I moved the keyboard and fired it up, and that's when the 5 second moment came, speaking of sparks. How do you keep on doing this?
A light also came on.
I am on the bridge. I will sing, but still I must find this enlightened center, relax, and breathe. I must do it right. For it, not them. Then like Govinda joined Siddhartha, I will have company.
I will sing. Simply, purely, and spiritually.
I cry.
Simplify.
Somehow i feel that if one person can find a "truth" and put it into words then we are each of us capable of doing so.
This is very important to me now. I sometimes feel overwhelmed by the perceived impossibility, but experiencing others come close has inspired me.
Right now, I feel like it could be a question of honesty for me. As much as I can find in myself. I think that would do it.
Maybe if I do, then all the dishonesty in the world around me won't matter.
Maybe if I do, then all the dishonesty in the world around me won't matter.
i believe this jm. Our authentic selves are not distracted from our core, our path.
hmmm here we go.
Siddhartha was published in 1922 there are the dates again....
The simple and elegant.
It was published in US in 1951 but it was popular in the "60s"
Are you and i just recognizing these Saturn Uranus energies?
I am fascinated.
LOL! OMG! 1922. This is so good, tseka. Am I to believe this is real??
Are you and i just recognizing these Saturn Uranus energies?
I've recognized them, but now I think they are ready to be used. What a great thought. Saturn and Uranus. Wouldn't it be wonderful if the opposition enlightened us? It will recognize us.
This could be pivotal. These discussions. And this is what I mean about honesty. Do I really want to be the artist I say I do? Am I ready to act accordingly? Am I ready to stop expending energy on the useless distraction? Am I ready??
Siddhartha's unwavering determination is inspiring. His lack of doubt, too. The thing he mentioned the most was his lack of need for teachers. Uranus-Saturn.
The thing he mentioned the most was his lack of need for teachers. Uranus-Saturn.
I always said this too. Then i opened my eyes and saw all around me were my teachers. The Raven who brought light bulbs and other gifts to the garden the trust of the bobcats. The ash. The spaces between raindrops. Everything.
what a ninny. But still correct, walking away from humans who "knew the answer" was absolutely necessary for me.
Another important thing about the Saturn-Uranus is the importance of the task. In my SN longing for connection, once it's made, I invariably go too far. This has to stop. The Uranus is the key to that, which I have with all my Uranian placements, and now maybe I can put this into practice consistently.
The connctions need to be made, but they need to be secondary to the purpose. And like Siddhartha did so masterfully, disengage when the time comes. Completely. In the end, it's not the self or the other. It's IT.
Siddhartha also rejected traditional Buddhist teachings, which I also do. He rejected traditional everything. The first scene was the separation from his father. Saturn-Uranus.
Well one thing and i would have to go back to make sure is that we now have the Nodes aligned with the Uranus Saturn Neptune. I think the nodes were OMG Taurus Scorpio...now i gotta go see.
walking away from humans who "knew the answer" was absolutely necessary for me.
Siddhartha's teacher was the river.
Humans never have the answer. Not for anyone else.
Heheh. You and astrology.
1919 NN just entering Sco (29 sco)
1922 NN just entering Virgo.
all these oppositions.
This is so very fascinating. I'm beginning to think that the NN in the 1st is a setup for spiritual enlightenment, because of the solo factor. None can do it more than this node. I think our relationships are for this purpose. To test our commitment to the path. It's not like Aquarius, or some Neptunian temple ritual, with Venus around. The NN 1st is serious stuff. The path through loneliness to aloneness. And the fearlessness to do it.
There are many types of spiritual experience but enlightenment alone in the forest has always been the one that appeals to me. Or maybe on he mountain.
doesn't it feel like the balancing?
It's like going out to the edge with someone and you turn to her and ask, "Are we enlightened now?"
Now that's interesting. I wonder when he wrote it exactly.
The NN in Virgo is very interesting. I've always thought of Virgo as maybe the most spiritual in the real sense. A workable humble variation.
Siddhartha found it as a common laborer. Ferryman on the river.
The balancing? I think that's been foremost on my mind. Regainng balance. That's the center of gravity I need in order to proceed.
You know in ancient scandinavian law there were 12 Althing (noble truths)
The first was ellen the word means courage -to walk alone in the darkness and carry the light.
I am set wondering about how the others match up with your NN descriptions.
JM, my dearheart
i am going to bed.
Sweet dreams for you and here is my gladness that you create this space to share within.
I've always known about people not having the answers. Then I found my own way through music, which is why they named me after Mirabai. But when I returned to the States, the spirituality got lost and I never seemed to regain it fully.
It's now up to me. As my meditation, my devotional expression, I will have to practice it as any spiritual discipline. Saturn-Uranus, Pisces-Virgo is perfect. Plus Pluto square Mars-Neptune in my 6th.
If I approach it this way, maybe the rightness will return, It started to this past week. This full Moon has brought me home.
I know full well if one does it right, it will be right. It has absolutely nothing to do with others, just as our teachers are inside of us.
Thank you my wonderful sweet and knowing friend. Something's in the air and I'm glad you're here.
The first was ellen the word means courage -to walk alone in the darkness and carry the light.
Let's do see how they match up. This one certainly does.
What joy.
Very nice. :-) Beautiful, and upending expectations. With hair flowing as if upwards, she appears to be in a pose that might have be possible under water, but the setting is of rusting iron.
"But when I returned to the States, the spirituality got lost and I never seemed to regain it fully."
In the bookstore, I read of Westerners who complained that their states of enlightenment experienced under the guidance of Indian instructors faded when they returned to the States. They snapped back to their earlier modes of thinking and feeling. Their Indian instructors, immersed in a different culture, found that astonishing and instructive.
states of enlightenment experienced under the guidance of Indian instructors faded when they returned to the States.
That's interesting. It got me thinking that maybe place is connected to the altered states, a sort of dependence on specific sensations. It shouldn't be so ultimately but as we get to higher states, it could be part of the process.
The rituals surrounding meditative states are sometimes complex.
she appears to be in a pose that might have be possible under water, but the setting is of rusting iron.
Nice thought. And the rust is indicative of water.
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